Sentinel de Gowe

I'm patiently breathing - painting on papers the ceiling
Paced to traces of reason tasted like freedom on weekends
I can't get enough of the month of thats close to december
Cause the longer i linger - closer to the hurt i remember
I wish we had the chance to talk more but now i've grown
To understand the purpose of life ignited from
Offshore conversations with my grandaddy - visions of bombings
Without the proper surroundings bodies laying i vomit
And with the changing of topics i could see the logic of saving
Anything that comes my way - ain't no room to run away
In a safe guarded zone - ain't no labor to underplay
Just a couple expensive cars and a dream that we gave away
And so I try to live where my reason is like a mirror
The times i make it clearer my Jesus i need You nearer
In a moment i could leave, please, freeze and I'm frozen
In just a motion this is over like a wave in the ocean no coastin

In a safe guarded zone - ain't no labor to underplay
Just a couple expensive cars and a dream that we gave away

I feel the scissors its coming closer to crazily to cut me
Dressed in a tinted mercedes bated with 'baby you're lovely'
Forget the matching purse and the person you want to be
A better life you'll never see - in these streets you'll never flee
Never think about leaving believing in my gentlemen
They'll grab you by the abdomen and stomp you like an elephant
And drag you by the hair - where - throw you like skeletons
And in a minute i will drug you with medicine
Dont you ever think about leaving - nobody cares
If they did they would save you but you're kissing in here
If i could tell you whats been running through my mind
As an adolescent intelligent beautiful girl designed
Love is non existent - my body has been a weapon
Laced with m80 machine guns that'll fire the second
And in a moment i could die cry holding to prayer
I know He hears me so i'm holding Him near - here

If i could tell you whats been running through my mind
As an adolescent intelligent beautiful girl designed

You said you love me so baby come on and just hold me tighter
Without the flashing of lighters blasting we crashing like fighters
What happened to the love and the way that our bodies touch
Everytime our shoulders brushed you could never get enough
And now its nothing cause them other girls are wanting your attention
I feel the tension when i think about the damage
We're bringing upon the bandage thats holding our hearts in balance
And every single massage is like a knife that just landed - enough!
I told myself the pain wasn't real…
Now the razor blades are cutting and im feeling the steel
And while the blood is dripping down im just thinking about the night
While we laid there in the light and my body was feeling tight
You told me just to trust you and that we would get married
And now the times are kinda scary - and my heart is feeling buried
Tried to tell myself that this moment is just emotional
Broken its hard to focus and potions I'd rather overdose..

Tried to tell myself that this moment is just emotional 
broken its hard to focus and potions I'd rather overdose..