Headlights ft. Nate Ruess de Eminem

Mom, I know I let you down
And though you say the days are happy
Why is the power off and I'm fucked up and
Mom, I know he's not around
But don't you place the blame on me
As you pour yourself another drink, yeah

I guess, we are who we are
Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on
Maybe we took this too far

I went in headfirst, never thinking about who what I said hurt
In what verse, my mom probably got it the worst, the brunt of it
But as stubborn as we are, did I take it too far, "Cleaning Out My Closet"
And all them other songs, but regardless I don't hate you
Cause ma, you're still beautiful to me, cause you're my mom
Though far be it for you to be too calm, our house was Vietnam
Desert Storm and both of us put together could form an atomic bomb
Equivalent to Chemical Warfare and forever we could drag this on and on
But, agree to disagree, that gift for me up under the Christmas tree
Don't mean shit to me, you're kicking me out? It's 15 degrees and
It's Christmas Eve, "Little prick, just leave," ma, let me grab my fucking coat
Anything to have each other's goats, why we always at each others throats
'specially when dad, he fucked us both, we're in the same fucking boat
You'd think that'd make us close, further away it drove us, but together
Headlights shine, and a car full of belongings
Still got a ways to go back to grandma's house, it's straight up the road
And I was the man of the house, the oldest, so my shoulders carried
The weight of the load, then Nate got taken away by the state at 8-years-old
And that's when I realized you were sick and it wasn't fixable or changeable
And to this day we remain estranged and I hate it though, but...

I guess, we are who we are
Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on
Maybe we took this too far

Cause to this day we remain estranged and I hate it though
Cause you ain't even get to witness your grandbabies grow
But I'm sorry momma for "Cleaning Out My Closet," at the time I was angry
Rightfully, maybe so, never meant that far to take it though
Cause, now I know it's not your fault and I'm not making jokes
That song I'll no longer play at shows and I cringe every time it's on the radio
And I think of Nathan being placed in a home
And all the medicine you fed us and how I just wanted you to taste your own
But now the medication's taking over
And your mental state's deteriorating slow and I'm way too old to cry
The shit is painful though but ma, I forgive you, so does Nathan, yo
All you did, all you said, you did your best to raise us both
Foster care, that cross you bear, few may be as heavy as yours
But I love you, Debbie Mathers, oh, what a tangled web we have
Cause, one thing I never asked was where the fuck my deadbeat dad was
Fuck it, I guess he had trouble keeping up with every address
But I'd have flipped every mattress, every rock and desert cactus
Owned a collection of maps and followed my kids to the edge of the atlas
If someone ever moved 'em from me, that you could've bet your asses
If I had to come down the chimney dressed as Santa, kidnap 'em
And although one has only met their grandma, once you pulled up
In our drive one night, as we were leaving to get some hamburgers
Me, her and Nate, we introduced you, hugged you
And as you left I had this overwhelming sadness
Come over me as we pulled off to go our separate paths
And I saw your headlights as I looked back and
I'm mad I didn't get the chance to thank you for being my mom and my dad
So mom, please accept this as a tribute I wrote this on the jet, I guess
I had to get this off my chest, I hope I get the chance to lay it 'fore I'm dead
The stewardess said to fasten my seatbelt, I guess we're crashing
So if I'm not dreaming, I hope you get this message
That I'll always love you from afar cause you're my momma

I guess, we are who we are
Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on
Maybe we took this too far

I want a new life (Start over)
One without a cause (Clean slate)
So I'm coming home tonight
Well, no matter what the cost
And if the plane goes down
Or if the crew can't wake me up
Well, just know that I'm alright
I was not afraid to die
Oh, even if there's songs to sing
My children will carry me
Just know that I'm alright
I was not afraid to die
Because I put my faith in my little girls
So I never say goodbye cruel world
Just know that I'm alright
I am not afraid to die

I guess, we are who we are
Headlights shining in the dark night I drive on
Maybe we took this too far

Mamá, sé que te defraudé
Y aunque dices que los días son felices
Por qué está la luz apagada y estoy jodido?
Mamá, sé que él no está cerca
Pero no me eches la culpa a mí
Mientras te sirves otro trago, sí

Supongo que somos como somos
Los faros brillan en la noche oscura mientras conduzco
Quizás llevamos esto demasiado lejos

Entré de cabeza, nunca pensando en a quién lastimaba lo que decía
En qué verso, mi mamá probablemente lo sufrió más, lo peor de ello
Pero por terco que seamos, fui demasiado lejos, "Limpiando mi armario"?
Y todas esas otras canciones, pero aun así no te odio
Porque mamá, sigues siendo hermosa para mí, porque eres mi madre
Aunque estés lejos de ser demasiado tranquila, nuestra casa era Vietnam
Tormenta del desierto y juntos podríamos formar una bomba atómica
Equiparable a la Guerra Química y podríamos arrastrar esto para siempre
Pero, acordar en desacuerdo, ese regalo para mí debajo del árbol de Navidad
No significa nada para mí, me estás echando? Hace 15 grados y
Es Nochebuena, "Pequeño imbécil, lárgate", mamá, déjame coger mi maldito abrigo
Cualquier cosa para fastidiarnos mutuamente, por qué siempre estamos a la greña?
Especialmente cuando papá, nos jodió a ambos, estamos en el mismo barco jodido
Pensarías que eso nos haría estar unidos, nos alejó más, pero juntos
Los faros brillan, y un coche lleno de pertenencias
Todavía nos queda un largo camino de regreso a casa de la abuela, está justo en la carretera
Y yo era el hombre de la casa, el mayor, así que mis hombros llevaban
El peso de la carga, luego Nate fue llevado por el estado a los 8 años
Y ahí fue cuando me di cuenta de que estabas enferma y no era reparable o cambiable
Y hasta el día de hoy permanecemos distantes y lo odio, pero...

Supongo que somos como somos
Los faros brillan en la noche oscura mientras conduzco
Quizás llevamos esto demasiado lejos

Porque hasta el día de hoy permanecemos distantes y lo odio
Porque ni siquiera llegaste a ver crecer a tus nietos
Pero lo siento mamá por "Limpiando mi armario", en ese momento estaba enojado
Con razón, tal vez sí, nunca quise llevarlo tan lejos
Porque, ahora sé que no es tu culpa y no estoy bromeando
Esa canción ya no la tocaré en los conciertos y me retuerzo cada vez que suena en la radio
Y pienso en Nathan siendo colocado en un hogar
Y en toda la medicina que nos diste y cómo solo quería que probaras la tuya
Pero ahora la medicación se está apoderando
Y tu estado mental se está deteriorando lentamente y yo soy demasiado mayor para llorar
La mierda es dolorosa, pero mamá, te perdono, lo mismo Nathan, eh
Todo lo que hiciste, todo lo que dijiste, diste lo mejor de ti para criarnos a ambos
Cuidado de acogida, esa cruz que llevas, pocos pueden ser tan pesados como la tuya
Pero te amo, Debbie Mathers, oh, qué enredo tenemos
Porque, una cosa que nunca pregunté fue dónde estaba mi maldito padre
Al diablo, supongo que tuvo problemas para mantenerse al día con cada dirección
Pero habría volteado cada colchón, cada piedra y cactus del desierto
Poseído una colección de mapas y seguido a mis hijos hasta el borde del atlas
Si alguien los hubiera alejado de mí, podrías apostar tus culos
Si tuviera que bajar por la chimenea vestido de Santa, secuestrarlos
Y aunque solo uno haya conocido a su abuela, una noche te acercaste
A nuestra